3 days

photo-2i’m sorta wondering what happened this month because…

my surgery is in 3 days.

holymotherfuckingshit.

the dr. wanted to take photos for the archives so we can look back and think, goddamnit, how were you not falling over all the time?

i was feeling self conscious and weird putting on articles of clothing that i’ve always second guessed, things i never thought I could pull off or made me feel like i stood out because of this fat roll, exposed chub, emphasized short torso, etc. all these things i hated about myself and made me feel dumpy and unattractive.

but after seeing some of the photos afterwards, it was almost like someone had taken off the self hate goggles and i couldn’t believe there was now physical proof of me in a bikini and i wasn’t having a mental breakdown about it.

it can only get better too.

3 is the magic number.

3 days and while the idea of having surgery is scary, i’m looking forward to seeing how my running gait improves and having the ability to walk into a store to buy a bra that isn’t $100+.

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