able to jump to the worst conclusion in a single bound!

maybe i need to be medicated for anxiety?

i don’t know. i don’t want to be. i’ve been feeling pretty decent this week. it’s wednesday and i haven’t had a meltdown. i’ve gotten decent sleep, i survived my first yoga class after a month off, i’m stoked to go back, my muscles are sore in a way they haven’t been in awhile, it’s pay day, i’m getting a haircut, i’m a little over budget but i think i can scrape by, i’m eating real food (no cliff bars or popcorn for dinner!), i’m almost caught up at work and…

i’m taking care of myself. it’s a full time job.

i’ve heard it in at least 80% of the yoga classes i’ve been too and it always makes sense and it seems to be something i forget. let go of what doesn’t serve you.

lately all of my emotions have felt so large. everything felt big. everything was draining. it didn’t hit me until monday that having all of it come out in one fell swoop meant i wasn’t going to hold on to any of it for too long and once it was gone…it was pretty much all gone. the fear still lingers but now it’s the size of a frosted mini-wheat and i can boil down my issues to cereal sized things i can digest and live with instead of large things that will surely crush me.

silly rabbit

i am not ashamed of my breakfast food metaphors.


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